No doubt a psychiatrist would say this is fairly typical behaviour for a woman in her mid thirties with no children. And he would probably be right.
Especially with my needy greedy Didi. She brings out ever such a maternal streak in me. And I love that cantankerous pussy cat with a mother's love. But the trouble is you see that she doesn't seem all that bothered about me. My husband says he doesn't know why I'm so fond of her, I mean he loves her but he thinks she's a stroppy and self serving kitty. And she delivers far too much "pointy love" of which he bears most of the brunt. But the more misunderstood and muddled she is, the more motherly I feel. And we are now at the stage where I spend entire evenings patting the sofa and coaxing her for a cuddle or worse, sitting on the floor while she sits on the sofa and magnanamously lets me stroke her a bit.
Now philosophically there is an interesting moral angle to all this. I've said I don't like the idea of manipulating the mind of a person by magic, but is it more defensible to do it to an animal? And is it subject to all the usual issues of whether that love is genuine. And does it really matter with a cat? I wonder if I am after genuine affection from needy Didi or whether I just want a fluffy bundle to cuddle in the winter? Or worst of all, do I just want to win at the cat love game?
I wonder if I would be compromising my integrity by using magic and denying me and my cat the chance to build a mutually loving and real relationship. Its a tricky one. Already I am starting to be a bit hungry after dinner as I keep saving tasty bits to bribe her with. And I don't like eating less dinner at all.
It seems that the relationship between mummy and cat is similar to the whole man and woman thing. The more keen you seem, the more they take you for granted. And the more desperate you appear, the more they run away. I've got that sussed in my marriage (I don't let him take me for granted, lol) but until I've learned the same lesson in the world of felines I fear that I will be eating a lot less dinner and spending a lot of my evenings sitting on the floor.....