Eureka! I have it! Well, sort of…
In my last blog I did a lot of whining but I'm not going to apologise for that because we all need a little whine sometimes! But I did have an idea!
My family are trying out 'meditation time.' Even if we can't have a strict routine like we used to, this, I'm hoping, will offer some semblance of structure every day. The kids can choose whatever form of meditation they want as long as it gives them a sense of calm. I used to meditate with them a lot when they were little but as they got older, they had less interest and I allowed us to get out of the habit. So, I'm going to see if we can get back into it.
My teen thinks this is daft. She says it's no different to her usual activities. She's sitting and drawing quietly. I suggested she try a different activity. She declined. Bloody kids.
My pre-teen is bored after five minutes and wants to watch Netflix. I've asked her to keep trying. She's drawing too but it's not easy for her to stay still for long so I've suggested yoga. She says maybe tomorrow and has now taken herself off to her room.
My baby has flat out refused to join in and is currently playing on a Numberblocks game. Aw well. At least he's doing maths, I suppose.
The husband has, as expected, decided not to join in. I feel more stressed now than I did before I started because of trying to get the kids settled.
Day Two -
Teen is drawing again and keeps interrupting the rest of us to show us what she's drawn.
Pre-teen is trying yoga. I had no idea yoga was so loud!
Baby is playing Numberblocks again. I've now decided that Numberblocks totally counts as meditation.
Husband still isn't playing with us and my cross stitching isn't getting anywhere.
Day Three -
Teen has started cross stitching with me. She's made a start on a Disney collage.
Pre-teen has done more yoga. She's getting quieter but no less distracting.
Baby is successfully playing Number blocks.
Husband is now joining in by staring into space in the quiet room, which he quite enjoys. I’m counting this as a win.
My cross stitching is coming along. Lots of leaves and flowers.
Teen has gone back to sketching. Stitching wasn't relaxing enough for her severely dyspraxic brain. She still wants to stitch but not for relaxation. She's learned something about herself. This is a win!
Pre-teen is playing keyboard today. Music is very important to her. It's a sensory stimulation she has a lot of control over. Rather distracting for the rest of us but aw well!
Baby is still playing Numberblocks. He's quiet, he's happy, he's learning. This is a sustained win, right?!
Husband is scrolling through Facebook.
I've abandoned my cross stitching to do the same.
Clearly we suck!
Day Five -
Just completely went out of our heads. We weren't even doing anything important or distracting. This wasn't even an epic fail. It was a meh fail.
Day Six -
Teen did some finger painting. I had no idea something so pretty could come from finger painting. Shows what I know.
Pre-teen is playing the same part of the same song over and over again. It's making me want to scream... But she's happy and calm so I shall grit my teeth and leave her to it.
Baby is building towers with his blocks. He wants one taller than him but it keeps falling over. I'm helping.
The husband is around here… somewhere.
Today is sort of a win... I suppose...
Day Seven -
Today is a fail.
The children decided mummy has had enough of their time and are all upstairs playing loudly in one of their rooms. At least they're not wasting in front of the tv or games console.
So, as you can see. This first week had its ups and downs.
I'll keep trying and see what happens!
During this last week I have found myself a victim of a psychic attack. I’ve had nightmares, migraines, nausea, intrusive thoughts, and lots of things have gone wrong quite suddenly.
So how do I know that’s what is happening? Could it be that I’m simply experiencing life or perhaps I’m suffering from mental health problems? This year has unquestionably been a tough one and the stress levels are high so that would make some sense. There are several clues that its not that though. The first one is the sudden onset, the second is that I have recently been involved in a situation that stopped someone’s behaviour from causing damage to others and the third is that it was sudden onset. It’s not always that definitive though, and not everyone has the knowledge and experience that I have about these things, so I decided to make it the subject of my musings this week in the hope that it will help someone else.
There are two kinds of psychic attack – unintentional and intentional. Unintentional attacks come from people who harbour negative feelings towards someone for whatever reason. They might be jealous, angry or hateful for example. Those emotions will be intense and they will likely brood on them, sending those thoughts out to the person or people they believe to be at the centre of the issue. They won’t be intentionally sending those thoughts out to the person or people at the centre of those emotions but nonetheless the effects will reach them and may well cause problems for them. It is unlikely that this person or group of people will connect their symptoms with the person who is sending out the emotions/thoughts their way.
Intentional attacks are malicious in that they intend to hurt the person or group of people in some way. The basis is still the same, but the process will be much more structured with energy raised to put into the working and being directed with tools of some kind. The strength of it will depend on the person doing the process.
Both can leave the person or group with any of the symptoms listed here:
What else to do though?
There are a number of things you can do to counter an attack and stop it having horrid effects on you including:
It turns out once I had renewed the protection on my home and cleansed myself the attack on me has ceased to have an effect. I’m glad to say I am back to my normal energetic self who sleeps well and the things that had gone wrong have righted themselves. I really hope the person who instigated the attack manages to process what they’re feeling and get themselves right soon.
This week is Interfaith week here in the UK and today, as President of the Pagan Federation, I made a statement reaffirming our commitment to Interfaith work. Why did I do that? Because it’s important and valuable work that we should all be able to get behind – even those people with no faith. Across the range of different faiths in this world there are many differences to be found within our practices and traditions but as human beings, there is far more than unites us than divides us.
The same goes for the many different paths that are to be found underneath the umbrella term of Pagan. It is very true that there are many differences to be found such as differing deity, practices, teachings and beliefs. It is also true though that there are similarities and not least because we are all human and have the same basic needs of nourishment, safety, clean air and people who understand and accept us for who we are.
The last year has been a tough one as we’ve all lived through a time that none of us have ever lived through before. A global pandemic shows the true colours of many things in our society from the thoughts and feelings of its members to just how necessary certain aspects of it are and faith communities have proved themselves essential for several reasons. Indeed, in some cases the provision found from within someone’s faith community has literally meant the difference between life and death.
It is therefore just as important that we practice Intrafaith as much as Interfaith but what does that mean in practice? It means being open to learning about other paths in Paganism other than our own. It means being willing to listen to Heathens even though we’re Wiccan or Hellanistic in our own path or vice versa. It means understanding that our path is not the only one and that they’re all just as valid as each other.
It’s important work too. If we can learn to listen to each other and create some empathy, whether between different Pagan paths or between different faith paths altogether, we can make a start on tackling the real challenges in this world. Those things that see huge numbers of people living in poverty or as victims of discrimination, crime and violence are a result of many years spent not listening or understanding the paths walked by our neighbours. If we’re going to tackle the social fragmentation that is more pandemic than Covid-19 is right now we have to play our part.
I for one commit to that work. I might not see it in my lifetime, but it’s a long play game that I devote myself to for my children and my children’s children so that they have a better chance of living a life where everyone is welcome, everyone is safe and everyone is accepted for who they are and what they believe. A world where everyone thrives.
You may have noticed from my silence that I've been struggling to write for a while... Or maybe I've been Slightly arrogant in assuming that I've been missed? Either way, I have some pretty decent excuses. 1- My brain has been uncooperative. 2- I've been uninspired. 3- I pretty much suck! See? Totally reasonable!
In all seriousness though, this pandemic seems to have gone on forever and I'm struggling with the adjustments to my routine. It's difficult to create a new routine in this house too, what with the one Autistic parent, one ADHD parent, one Autistic ADHD child, one Autistic pre-teen (all four with demand avoidance) and one ADD teen. So many varying needs that are often rather incompatible.
When we first went into shielding back in March, we tried to treat it like an extended holiday but our usual activities were almost impossible! Usually during the holidays we're never at home. We're visiting family and friends, out exploring forests and beaches and castles. .. But this year the forests were full of people doing their 'daily exercise' and refusing to social distance while doing it, the castles were closed, the beaches were full of people pooping in buckets and family and friends weren't allowed to meet... So we stayed home and I used every trick in my agoraphobic mind to keep my littles entertained at home... And now I'm out! They've had enough of baking. They're tired of crafts. They've had it up to here with board games. They're sick to the back teeth of kitchen science... And I'm out of brain.
This is the time of year when my pain increases, my fatigue rises and my mental health takes a nosedive so I'm worried about how I'm going to support my kids through what is sure to be a difficult Winter.
This is turning out to be a rather morose issue of this blog.
So what am I going to do about it?
Well, give me a minute and I'll tell you! ... ... ... Ok, maybe by the next musings I'll have come up with something?
Maybe… Stay tuned and see then! :
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