QUESTION - I have been wondering what I am, I believe in God, Spirit guides, crystal healing, herbs and oils for healing. I also believe if someone does harm to me that they will have harm done to them, it just happens every time. I can see spirits and hear them, I have been able to do this since I was little. I have been able to play with the wind and fire since I was at least 10 yrs old I remember making the fire dance when I was smaller and standing outside and raising my arms above my head and telling the wind to come to me and it would. I see the future at times and have learned not to wish bad things cause it always come to be. I am on a journey right now trying to find my path and what I'm supposed to be doing, I meditate and try to figure it out can you help me?
ANSWER - I sometimes wonder if we in the Pagan communities are a little bit too fond of labelling ourselves and pigeon holing our individual paths with terminology that serves to define us but also to limit our beliefs.
Reading your question, the thing that really struck me was how free you sound as a person. You cross the barrier between the living and the dead, you play games with the wind... You sound like a true free spirit at peace with yourself and I'm actually quite loathe to suggest that you give yourself a title. You could pick one if you so chose but I wonder if having a title would constrain some of that freedom and take away some of the individuality of the path you are already walking.
You could if you like call yourself a witch or a pagan, you also have some druidic characteristics so none of those terms would be wrong but I do wonder if any of those terms are strictly necessary. Why not just evolve on your magical journey until one day a label that is 100% right for you (if any) turns up?
You ask what you are supposed to be doing but I actually think you are already doing what you need to. You haven't got your nose buried in a book, you're already starting to understand the natural world around you and you seem to have an intuitive grasp of magic. Keep on doing the things you are doing, focus on evolving your path, not forcing it. Do what comes natural and what feels right, perhaps try some different methods of utilising your will, possibly some formal spell work to see how that works for you and let yourself relax into habits and practices that suit your way of working.
A path isn't always something you find and follow, sometimes its the track you look back on and realise you were following signposts all the time but you just never knew it. That's following your intuition and in your case I think that will work better for you than any step by step guide based on somebody else's idea of what your path should look like and where your path should lead.
Image http://www.sxc.hu/photo/1425928 (Suemax)
Join the Witch Path Forward Facebook community. (Click the icon).
Changing your path/religion/way of life can be a time in your life when you need a bit of support. The purpose of this site is to offer a helping hand and a starting point to explore all the information available on the net.