QUESTION - Kinda a long story. Ill be surprised if you answer this honestly. I've been looking for a way out of witchcraft for a while. About 8 years ago I got introduced to witchcraft by a lady working at a gas station. She repeatedly tried to get me and another girl I worked with into the craft. The other chick was a diagnosed borderline personality disorder and a borderline sociopath, bi-polar etc.
The other girl didn't get into it (thank God) but I did. I'm bi-polar (my father was abusive - not my fault) among other things. As soon as I entered witchcraft I had problems. Basic new witch problems. I asked the lady to help but she would only laugh. She never gave me advice on anything. Just gave me a book and was pretty much like good luck. So I had no idea what I was doing. Eventually after several years of being in witchcraft things starting taking a bad turn and I wanted to leave.
Right after I left I got attacked by a co-worker who assaulted me. She was a Haitian who was into Voodoo. Maybe this has something to do with things. I doubt it though. She basically tried to kill me. I had bruises all over my neck for her trying to strangle me. This co-worker was known to be a little psychotic. Both of us got fired from our jobs. There was a silver lining to this sort of. I got into manufacturing where I'm making good money. Only problem is everything is still messed up 4 years later. About 3 and a half years ago (not too long after I left witchcraft) random problems with me would literally just start out of thin air. I cant make eye contact with anyone because it freaks them out. I cant pass by someone because it freaks them out and cant have someone approach me out of the corner of my eye it, freaks them out. I usually give females the worst vibes. (I don't know why because before witchcraft I always got along with women the best.) I give off a ridiculous bad vibes. Like as if you smelt something putrid face usually happens to people or they'll literally stand back away from me with their hands out, avoiding eye contact, petrified.
I've been hearing Medusa. So I'm like the real life Medusa. But it's like that for everything that moves. Even my cat from time to time. I'm a serious emotional vampire even when I'm happy (tho that's gotten better). I also am constantly getting laughed at. People usually laugh at me when they walk by or when I make eye contact with them I can see them trying to hold back a laugh. I had 8 jobs last year. I quit several of them because I was being laughed at so bad I couldn't take it and I have been fired from 4 jobs in a row. 2 of the jobs I was there for 4 days, never said anything to anyone and they fired me. Another one after less than 2 months after the guy I was working with kept making up things to get me fired because he didn't like me.
I've been called a psycho though have never talked to anyone or started shit with anyone. I've been told I'm the worst person to be around, tho before witchcraft everyone would tell me how happy I made them. I used to love joking and telling stores now I can hardly say two words. I had a fire at my apartment that left me homeless at the beginning of the year. My landlord came after me for 5,000 dollars. I stayed with my parents for two months before they pushed me out. I then rented a studio apartment for 2 months where the lady lied and kept my security deposit after charging me about 4500 dollars to stay there. My new job is horrible. I'm constantly getting laughed at and everyone's talking shit about me. I hide in the bathrooms on my breaks.
Anyway, when I got involved into witchcraft I opened some type or portal I cant seem to close. Something attached itself to me. I don't know if it's a negative entity, I think it's something worse. I've contacted Shamans, they haven't been able to help. I've talked to other people who are into witchcraft, they haven't been able to help. I hoping you can offer some advice because I don't know what to do. I'm not kidding you. This is no joke. My vibes are something you'd see in a horror movie. How do I remove this entity? I've asked it to leave. Not working. I've tried ignoring it. It's not working. I've tried asking for help. No response. I've tried dwelling on happy things like funny stories from my past. Not working.
ANSWER - I think there are some concerns here which we will address but I don't think you are helping yourself by pinning so many labels on yourself. You need to focus on the problem rather than trying to define it by saying you are an x, y z. Most of the problems you are describing here can be explained in a far less sensationalist way than likening yourself to Medusa and I think you would feel more settled in your own mind if you changed some of the language you are using to describe these issues.
It is good that when you discovered witchcraft was not for you that you had the strength of character to leave. Walking away from something that is a poor fit for you is always a sign of strength rather than weakness. I do not however feel that stepping away from witchcraft is the cause of the bad vibes you are experiencing. I am not saying it is impossible that you have attracted the attention of an unpleasant entity but from the symptoms you are describing it is unlikely.
I think you need to consider rationally whether seeing a counsellor would benefit you. Believing everybody you meet is laughing at you can be an area where therapy can help. We can't overlook the fact that they may genuinely be laughing at you but the first option is the more likely and should be eliminated before exploring other options. As witches we are not averse to magical dilemmas and solutions but we also acknowledge that it is usually worth trying more mundane practical solutions first.
You also need to be clear when you are the source of the problem and when somebody else is. Your voodoo
lady didn't attack you for any other reason than she was quite clearly a nut job. Your colleague who refused to get on with you was very likely an unpleasant person who found it hard to engage socially. If you allow the inadequacies of other people to sit on your shoulders they will wear you down.
I think what you are not doing is giving yourself a break from all the awful things that have happened to you and allowing yourself the right to understand that possibly you are not yourself, you are stressed and tired and withdrawn and it is this that is causing people to react to you differently. Give yourself some credit for being tough enough to get through your troubles but also accept that you may need a little bit of help in getting your emotional equilibrium back.
I honestly think the best thing you can do is to ask your doctor for a referral to a counsellor and sit and talk some of this stuff through. If at the end of that you still feel there is definitely a craft related core to your problems then we can explore that further down the line. But at the moment you sound to me like somebody who has had a lot of burdens on their back this year and who could do with some support to offload some of that baggage. Try it, you have nothing to lose. At the very least you will have eliminated one possibility. I'm a fan of the balance of probabilities and though as I say I'd never rule out a less credible cause I'd always want to explore the likely causes first.
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